It took me 2 days to get my heart out, cry a river and try to overcome the result of my visit to the doctor on Saturday!... To be honest i think i haven't overcomed it yet!!!; but this weekend was reflection weekend!...
Since i remember me as myself that i have this urge about life, this feeling that life is way far too short, that time goes by too fast, that i should live and fulfill my dreams as fast as i could. In fact never understood how some people can go through life taking it as it comes not feeling the urgency that i always had inside of me, even as a small child!
Ok! Following THE Nature's laws i wasn't meant to be here! I knocked on heavens' doors several times, as a baby and small child! I was meant to die when i was about 1 year and a half!! So somehow someway, deep inside of me, after that always took life as extra time! Don't really know if i was able to explain myself!, but do you know what i mean?!
At the age of 25 i was there again!!, trying to meet St Peter and all the angels!... Hopefully escaped! Since then that urgency on living grew bigger and stronger!
NOW?! I'm running for time! I'm walking the stairs of heaven again!!! Ok! It's great because it reminds me how precious life is!, how lucky i'm too be alive, to enjoy my loved ones better and in a sweeter way!... but now i have 2 children and it's not funny anymore! I have the right to see them grow a little bit more, ain't i?!...
To make a long story short! - I already knew i needed surgery (nothing new!!)! I went to the doctor! And now i have a kind of a ballon (that's the only way i can explain it) inside my face, "eating" my bones (specially under my left eye and my left forehead), and growing in size! I can loose my left eye and go blind (1st bad news), but that ballon (i learnt that ballons are fun only on parties!) can literally explode bringing a huge amount of problems. Cutting it the hard way! -- my meeting with God all Mighty is set on sooner than i would like!! So... i'm just trying to get that surgery as soon as i can and hope i'll go under the knife in 2 to 3 weeks (maybe sooner - it depends ironically on how healthy i am!)
Anyway... life goes on! and this photo is a detail on my christmas decor! Have to get my mind into something! Promisse to show you some more on future posts!
Enjoy life and be healthy! Life is now! This moment! Drink it as if it was the first time! don't take it for granted!
Have a great new week!